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Waiting
July 31, 2003, 10:11 p.m. I’m just waiting now . . . waiting to see what comes next. I honestly have no idea what will. I go about my life, well aware that I’m not sure what state it’ll be in next week, but what else can I do? I am at least reminded by this that I have a whole lot of friends, and family, who’ll be there if the worst happens. It’s my birthday in a month. I’ll be 20. More than anything, I want Elf-boy to be there to celebrate it with me. Not that I’d get anything, but that’s Elf-boy for you ; ) If this were a day in my normal life, I’d find something to prattle on about – my growing horror at the realisation I’ve signed myself up for a philosophy class; the great t-shirt Eledhwen is making me for my birthday – but it’s not, this is my limbo life. I just want to know what happens next so I can . . . do, instead of wait.
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