Look Away, I'm Hideous
September 23, 2003, 11:50 p.m.

Yo. Um, this is kinda long, so feel free to skip it. It's a conversation I had with some guy who randomly messaged me. I end up lying my head off, and I had a really complex and involved back-story, but unfortunately, the sucker didn't run with the hints I dropped, so you don't get to hear it.

But anyway, this my alter ego: a married virginal voluntary suicide counsellor with blocked tear ducts, a regional amateur squash championship, and a protective love of Father Roland.

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     ICQ History Log For:    
         *********  black Robe
 Started on Tue Sep 23 23:28:00 2003
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black Robe   9:48 PM  hello

Liadlaith    9:49 PM  hi

black Robe   9:50 PM  you took a while dear
                      I almost ran out of breath
                      and what a shy hi that was

Liadlaith    9:50 PM  i'm a bit busy
                      and annoyed

black Robe   9:51 PM  why annoyed

Liadlaith    9:51 PM  i thought i set my icq to stop people from
                      randomly messaging me

black Robe   9:55 PM  well
                      am waiting you know

Liadlaith    9:55 PM  waiting for what?

black Robe   9:56 PM  for your reply dear..
                                  

Liadlaith    9:56 PM  to what? 

black Robe   9:56 PM  did you get that

Liadlaith    9:57 PM  get what?

black Robe   9:59 PM  messages are getting lost here...
                      evil forces are trying to keep us apart

Liadlaith    9:59 PM  oh how terrible

black Robe   10:00 PM it is
                      and sad

Liadlaith    10:00 PM are you crying?

black Robe   10:01 PM hmm..
                      not yet
                      are you

Liadlaith    10:01 PM i can't

black Robe   10:02 PM howcome

Liadlaith    10:04 PM blocked tear-ducts. it means whenever i want
                      to cry, the tears just build up behind my
                      eyeballs and in my sinuses. it hurts so much i
                      start throwing up.
                                  
                      so i can't watch sad movies, or peel onions

black Robe   10:08 PM well
                      am about to run out of wells here

Liadlaith    10:08 PM maybe you should put up a rain tank then

black Robe   10:09 PM maybe..
                      so what do you do

Liadlaith    10:09 PM i'm a counsellor for a suicide hotline

Liadlaith    10:10 PM and an amateur squash player

black Robe   10:10 PM and yet you are only 18 

Liadlaith    10:10 PM i'm 20

black Robe   10:11 PM right.. stupid icq not updating
                      am a Suicidee waiting for a counsellor

Liadlaith    10:11 PM really

black Robe   10:11 PM true..
                                  

Liadlaith    10:12 PM well, considering *you're* 103, perhaps it's
                      time to euthanaise yourself

black Robe   10:14 PM nope
                      sounds too boring
                      I am devising an ingenius finale..
                      Great Beings like Myself deserve much much
                      better exits than the rest of those pathetic
                      mortal creatures 

Liadlaith    10:15 PM are you going to throw yourself off a bridge?

black Robe   10:15 PM of course now...
                      please.. that is so boring.. and lacks
                      imagination

Liadlaith    10:16 PM are you going to take a lot of innocent people
                      with you?

black Robe   10:17 PM you must be kidding...
                      to do so would mean to acknowledge that they
                      exist in the first place

Liadlaith    10:18 PM i'm bored 
                                  
                      let's talk about squash

black Robe   10:18 PM hmm..
                      are you single?

Liadlaith    10:19 PM no, i'm married

black Robe   10:19 PM seriously??

Liadlaith    10:19 PM yes. 

black Robe   10:20 PM bored and married hey
                      that makes sense

Liadlaith    10:21 PM that's pretty rude

black Robe   10:23 PM hmm..
                      it is pretty simple
                      nothing to do with rudeness
                      I added your "I am bored" with your "I'm
                      married"

Liadlaith    10:23 PM well i'm sorry if talking about you killing
                      yourself is boring. i get enough of that at
                      work

black Robe   10:24 PM then what would you suggest we talk about

Liadlaith    10:24 PM squash. 

black Robe   10:25 PM I see
                      what about it

Liadlaith    10:25 PM have you ever played it?

black Robe   10:26 PM hit a ball with a stick of some sort..
                      hmm.. how interesting that sounds..
                      once.. 

Liadlaith    10:26 PM it's not a stick, it's a racquet!
                                  
                      and it's very interesting. i'm the regional
                      amateur champion.

black Robe   10:31 PM so what else

Liadlaith    10:32 PM *sigh*
                      you're obviously not one of the chosen few who
                      get squash.
                                  
                      what do you do?

black Robe   10:32 PM hmm...
                      I would like to be on the receiving end of
                      Squash

Liadlaith    10:33 PM you mean you want to be the wall?

black Robe   10:33 PM on..
                      I mean I would like you to sit on My Princely
                      Face, NAKED, and "Squash" it

Liadlaith    10:34 PM ewww. that's not the sort of thing to say to a
                      virgin

black Robe   10:34 PM :)
                      a married virgin

Liadlaith    10:34 PM yes. do you have a problem with that?

black Robe   10:35 PM I don't have any problems.. only solutions
                                  

Liadlaith    10:36 PM you sound like my priest

black Robe   10:37 PM you have a priest of your own..
                      please, do tell

Liadlaith    10:37 PM no, i don't have a priest of my own. but i do
                      have a priest, like everyone else in my
                      community

black Robe   10:44 PM well

Liadlaith    10:44 PM he was the one who advised me to get married

black Robe   10:45 PM right..
                      silly old priest

Liadlaith    10:46 PM don't say that about father roland.
                      he was very wise.
                                  
                      like st paul says in 1 corinthians, "'It is
                      good for a man not to have sexual relations
                      with a woman.' But because of the temptation
                      to sexual immorality, each man should have his
                      own wife and each woman her own husband."

black Robe   10:48 PM hmm... I eat your Toes
                      am hungry

Liadlaith    10:49 PM my toes are all gristly, you should probably
                      eat something else

black Robe   10:49 PM what's gristly

Liadlaith    10:49 PM full of gristle?

black Robe   10:49 PM what's gristle

Liadlaith    10:50 PM cartilage. 

black Robe   10:50 PM I see...
                      hmmm..
                      well I want to eat it just the same..
                      eat BOTTOM and drink from Sacred Fountain too
                      while am at it
                      if you don't mind

Liadlaith    10:52 PM ugh! you're a classic case of what father
                      roland was trying to stop jerome and i from
                      becoming

black Robe   10:56 PM you lie about being married
                      what a shame..
                      We could have been you know

Liadlaith    10:56 PM i'm not lying, i am married. 

black Robe   10:56 PM prove it

Liadlaith    10:57 PM how? and why should i? god knows i am telling
                      the truth, who else would i want to please?

black Robe   11:02 PM so what else

Liadlaith    11:03 PM so what else what?

black Robe   11:04 PM do you shave down THERE

Liadlaith    11:05 PM stop saying things like that to me! i don't
                      like it, my husband wouldn't like it, neither
                      would my priest and God most certainly
                      doesn't!

Liadlaith    11:05 PM you're really upsetting me and it's mean to
                      make me cry

black Robe   11:06 PM yeah right :)
                      the Devil himself couldn't make you cry

Liadlaith    11:07 PM don't be so blasphemous!

black Robe   11:08 PM hmm..
                      do you have a pic

Liadlaith    11:09 PM like i would give you anything . . . you're a
                      disgusting, perverted unbeliever. 

black Robe   11:10 PM I will convert once I see you
                      so send

Liadlaith    11:10 PM no!

black Robe   11:11 PM hmm..
                      would you like Me to let you be then

Liadlaith    11:11 PM i think so. you've upset me enough. 

black Robe   11:12 PM go burn in heaven
                      freakin BIMBO
                      with lying tongue

Liadlaith    11:13 PM i am not lying to you! stop accusing me like
                      this

black Robe   11:14 PM hmm..
                      like I said
                      go freeze in your heaven

Liadlaith    11:14 PM you poor lost soul

black Robe   11:15 PM what religion are you

Liadlaith    11:15 PM i'm a christian

black Robe   11:17 PM the piss of a diseased Camel is too good for
                      your foul lying mouth
                      Be Gone

Liadlaith    11:20 PM Who is this?

black Robe   11:20 PM who is asking

Liadlaith    11:20 PM Jerome. Why have you made my wife cry?

black Robe   11:21 PM not My fault
                      I meant to say

Liadlaith    11:23 PM Did you know that my wife has blocked tear
                      ducts, and that when she cries her tears can't
                      come out? 
                                  
                      You've made her cry, and now she's in agony.
                      I've had to carry her into the bathroom so
                      that when she starts throwing up, which she
                      inevitably will, she'll be close to a drain.

black Robe   11:26 PM look female BIMBO
                      go fool your own kind
                      Be Gone

Liadlaith    11:27 PM You truly are a lost soul. 
                                  
                      I think it best that you don't try to talk to
                      us anymore.

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